Here is Wendy's race report from the Myrtle Beach Marathon.  She did it way more justice than I ever could.  I was just along for the ride on this one.

Myrtle Beach Marathon 2013
by: Wendy Ray

Goal:  It started as sub-4:00 marathon.  Then I got ideas.  If I'd done 26.2 in 4:11 in an Ironman race, surely I could shave a significant amount of time from that in a stand alone marathon, I thought to myself.  What was Boston qualifying time again?  3:45. Sure, why not go for that?  Nevermind that my previous marathon PR was 4:09.  Nevermind that at all . . .

Race plan:  The plan was laid out quite clearly by my coach, taking the guess work out of it.  That should relieve my nerves, no?  Actually, no, because the plan was to negative split the marathon – something I'd never done before.  Mile 20 is where the wheels generally come off.  Stuff hurts.  Nothing specific, just everything.  But according to plan, this was where I was expected to kick it up a notch.  No wonder my hands were sweaty just thinking about it.  The vast majority of my training had been according to heart rate, and that is what would guide my race.  Jog the first 5 miles, run the next 15, and race the last 10K - heart rate zone 2, then 3, then 4, respectively.   Fuel 3 hours before race start, 5 minute jog to warm up, energy gel and water 30 minutes before race start, follow heart rate guidelines, energy gels at mile 5, 10, 15, 20, and 24.  Follow these simple steps and pull off a sub 3:45 marathon.  Ready, set, go.

Pre-race:  I'll be honest. I had high hopes - high hopes and tremendous amounts of anxiety leading up to this race.  I don't know why I was so nerved up.  Qualify, don't qualify – it wasn't going to make or break me.  Other things besides training and racing mean more to me in life.  Still, this meant something.  Working hard and achieving a goal is satisfying.  And in some way, it would symbolize how far I've come . . . in a lot of ways.  I put in the training.  I did every workout exactly as prescribed by my coach.  I was injury-free.  I even managed to get reasonable amounts of sleep the week before the race.  Ashby and I loaded up the kids and headed to Myrtle Beach on Friday afternoon.  We stayed with Ashby's mom and her boyfriend at his house, which happened to be about 2 miles from the race start.  They wanted to spend some time with the kids and graciously invited us all down for the whole weekend.  I had been checking the weather all week.  The forecast was ever-changing – 40s, 20s, 30s, 23 mph winds, 9 mph winds, 13 mph winds, sun, rain, partly cloudy, snow flurries (which, incidentally, did hit later that night – thank you, race organizers, for doing this on Saturday!!)  It was in the 60s and sunny and beautiful on Friday, and we hoped it would hold up for the morning.  We went out for a nice dinner, picked up our race packets, organized our things, and got to bed at a decent hour.  The alarm went off at 3:30 a.m. so I could "fuel" – i.e. eat 2 waffles w/peanut butter and a half cup of greek yogurt with blueberry preserves.  Then I actually went back to sleep for an hour or so, which seemed weird, but the man said fuel 3 hours before race start, so I wasn't about to start bucking the system.  5:00 a.m. we got up and dressed and headed to the race start.  The drive over to Broadway at the Beach took about 2 minutes.  This is possibly the most well-organized race I've ever done.  There was no traffic getting into the parking lot, parking spaces were plentiful, and it was about a minute walk across a field lined with a generous number of porta-potties to get to the start.  We arrived around 5:30 a.m. and had time to sit and enjoy the heat in the car.  5:55 a.m. – warm up jog.  6:00 a.m. – energy gel and water.  6:15 a.m. – porta-potty visit.  6:20 a.m. – lined up at the start.  I was wearing shorts, 2 long sleeve shirts, gloves, ear warmers, and a sweatshirt jacket to throw away at the start.  Overall, I have no complaints about the weather.  It was cold but not miserable with very little breeze.  Inside the start line crowd, I don't think I even needed the throwaway jacket.  This is the moment I noted that nerves really do mess with your heart rate.  Normal standing around heart rate for me is somewhere in the 60s.  Standing there before the gun went off, my garmin was reading 100 bpm.  WTF??  But nerves are good, right?  As my coach said, it shows you respect the distance.  As many times as you've done it, a marathon is no joke.  This was exciting!  And there was a live elephant up ahead – you don't see that every day!  *The race provides funding for some animal charities, so the elephant was representing, not just spectating.

The race:  We started somewhere around the 3:35 pace group.  It seemed somewhat loosely organized, and the 4:00 pace group wasn't that far behind, so I'm not sure it mattered.  We were not too far back from the start line, and when the gun went off, there were only a few seconds of shuffling before people broke into full-fledged running.  I tried to keep my head down and stay at a comfortable jog.  After all, that was the race plan.  It was to be a negative split, and in order for that to happen, my coach had very clearly warned me that I would have to be okay with being passed in the first miles.  A lot.  And so I was, but it is hard not to get caught up in that.  The pounding of shoes all around and the excitement of the crowd – it all gets inside your head and rattles around and makes you go out too fast.  I knew I couldn't let that happen, so I missed the sights in those first few miles.  I tuned everything out and found my rhythm.  Of course I had figured out the pace I would need to maintain to make a qualifying time, even though I was supposed to go by heart rate, and I knew if I stayed around 9:00 the first 5, 8:30 the next 15, and 8:00 the last 10K, I would be golden.  Of course I also had doubts about being able to do 8:00s in the last 6 miles, so I was more comfortable being a little sub-9:00, and that is where I landed – about 8:50-ish.  It felt good.  I could chit chat and breathe easy, but my heart rate was troublesome.  It was supposed to be 148 or less for the first 5 miles, but I was pushing 148 in the first mile.  I decided that race day excitement was to blame, so I let myself push the heart rate a little in the first 5, at times up to the low-150s.  If I felt this good, I figured it was probably okay.  Approaching the 5 mile mark, I assessed how I was feeling.  Absolutely no aches and pains, legs felt fresh, breathing easy, and I didn't have to go to the bathroom.  My extremities were a little numb from the cold, but overall the temperature was comfortable.  The sun was out, so it felt a little warmer, at least in my head.  I took an energy gel and kicked it up a notch at the 5 mile mark. 

This is where we started doing the passing, and it felt nice and easy.  I was really in my groove, ticking off the miles.  My friend and always awesome supporter, Paige, was out to cheer at mile 6, and I dropped my ear warmers with her.  It was turning into a beautiful morning.  Miles 8-17 were along the ocean.  First, I took a stroll down memory lane – the strip in Myrtle Beach where I spent many hours cruising back and forth as a teenager.  I hadn't been back to this beach in nearly 20 years, so the nostalgia kept my mind busy.  Then we came to a stretch with a wide open view of the ocean, and that was where some wind kicked in.  It didn't feel too bad, and I tried to draft off of other runners as much as possible.  Ashby and I chatted here and there, but we were mostly all business.  I entertained myself by eavesdropping on bits of conversations other runners were having as we passed – "no one expected that from Bon Jovi . . . ", "I need to get angry to get through this . . . ", "my legs feel weird . . . "  No shit, dude.  Around mile 13, when the half marathoners split off, I started to feel some tightness in my quads.  It wasn't bad, but I was aware that they were working overtime.  Again, my heart rate was a bit above where it should be.  Max should have been 158, but I was inching up into the 160s. Again, I felt good, so I figured it was probably okay?  Yes, my legs were starting to feel it, but my breathing was still very easy and relaxed.  Each mile, my pace was comfortably under 8:30, and I was almost sure I could kick it up if I HAD to.   

Mile 18 – Okay, this is when shit started getting real.  To be honest, this is where the doubts started creeping in.  We turned a corner and realized we had, in fact, been running into a headwind.  The flip side of that was nice and made us pick up our pace a bit, but I could tell that I was starting to fade.  I had two miles before I was supposed to kick it up again, and I wasn't sure I had it in me.  This is where I started doing too much math in my head.  Let me make this clear – I am not a math guy, so this is nothing but trouble.  The next two miles I felt generally uneasy, trying to assess how I was feeling and what I had left in the tank.  Having reached no conclusions, I hit mile 20 and kicked it up another notch.  My heart rate was immediately at or exceeding the max I was supposed to reach in the last 10K.  My breathing was still easy, but my legs were starting to feel heavy.  I had run a solid race for 20 miles, and I was starting to panic at the thought of it all falling apart at the end.  I overheard two guys talking as we passed.  "We're still at a 3:40 right now," one of them said.  "No way," the other said, huffing and puffing.  "3:50, maybe. I'm not going to get any faster than this."  But we were passing them pretty easily, so assuming THEY were good at math, this could be okay.  At mile 22, I realized there was no way I could keep up the new pace, so I eased off a little.  I just have to get to mile 24.  Then I'll have my last energy gel.  It will give me something to do, maybe give me a little boost of energy (this has literally never happened immediately after eating a gel - while I'm sure it works in the overall scheme, the immediate reaction is a boost of nausea.)  Around mile 24, I saw a clock that said 3:22.  On the one hand, I felt like my legs were going to stop working.  On the other hand, my woefully inept mathematical skills told me that I could fall to 10 minute miles at this point and still come in under 3:45.  Totally doable!  Ashby said what I was already thinking, "You can do anything for 20 minutes."  At mile 25, I let myself think about what it was going to feel like to get back and tell the kids that we're going to Boston.  The next mile would hurt like a mofo, but nothing was going to stop me now.  I felt like every step was getting slower and slower, but it turns out that was all in my head.  Up ahead, I could see the course turn to the right.  Just beyond the turn was the 26 mile marker.  A quick glance at my garmin told me I was still at 3:30-something.  One more right turn, and I could see the finish line, but the view was disturbingly like that classic hallway scene in Poltergeist.   I was sure I was moving toward it, so why did it keep moving farther away?  I dug deep, I picked up my pace, and I crossed the finish line.  Best of all, I crossed it leaving everything out on the course – everything I had in me - and it was worth it.

Post-race:  This was a truly awesome experience for me.  Qualifying for Boston was something I never thought I could do.  A year ago, I would have said it wasn't possible.  This was my tenth stand alone marathon.  It was the first time I negative split a marathon.  It was the first time I ran every step without stopping and/or walking.  It was the first time I actually went in with a well-thought out plan.  I feel like I did a pretty good job of controlling the few things I could control.  Everything else happily fell into place.  I should mention here that Ashby did not intend to stay with me the whole time, but we did end up running the entire race together.  As in life, I think we are stellar partners in running.  We push each other to keep going without saying too much or too little, without being gratingly cheerful or harsh and unforgiving, without pressuring but not letting the other off the hook either.  I don't know if I would have done as well without him, but I'm glad I didn't have to find out.  In the end, we all win – family vacation to Boston, April 2014!!

The numbers:

Gun time – 3:40:52

Chip time – 3:40:18 

F40-44 age group – 5/93

Splits:

mile 1 – 8:55

mile 2 – 8:54

mile 3 – 8:49

mile 4 – 8:51

mile 5 – 8:49

mile 6 – 8:24

mile 7 – 8:19

mile 8 – 8:17

mile 9 – 8:17

mile 10 – 8:24

mile 11 – 8:25

mile 12 – 8:27

mile 13 – 8:15

mile 14 – 8:19

mile 15 – 8:23

mile 16 – 8:15

mile 17 – 8:16

mile 18 – 8:12

mile 19 – 8:12

mile 20 – 8:18

mile 21 – 8:03

mile 22 – 8:05

mile 23 – 8:24

mile 24 – 8:13

mile 25 – 8:11

mile 26 – 8:15

last .2 – 7:47

Leadville doesn't care.

When I hired my coach shortly after my DNF at Leadville last year I was struck by something he told me.  “If you want to finish Leadville, just do the work.  Leadville doesn’t care.”  By doing the work he meant running an average of 60 miles a week for 50 weeks.  That’s five days a week, every week for almost a year.  That’s what it will take to finish.  That’s what it will take to redeem myself.  That’s what it will take to bring home a buckle.

I have spent the last 5 months doing the work.  After my fall at the Frosty Fifty a couple of weeks ago, I was sidetracked for a week and didn’t run at all.  In addition to losing some training time, I started to lose my mojo.  I really enjoyed not running 10 hours a week and spending more time with my family.  As my knee healed, I began to get back with the program and found myself looking for motivation to recapture my drive and commitment.  That’s when it hit me.  I remembered my coach’s words,  “Leadville doesn’t care.”  It got me running again.  Now, every time I’m not excited about a run I stop and repeat that simple mantra to myself.  It’s written in small font on a sticky note on my computer at work.  It stares at me every day.  Taunting me.  Reminding me.  Encouraging me.  It doesn’t yell.   It doesn’t have an explanation mark at the end of it.  It doesn’t need one.  That sentence is powerful enough, even when delivered in a no nonsense, matter of fact tone.  

Leadville doesn’t care…

• ·      If I’m tired
• ·      If my knee hurts
• ·      If I miss my family
• ·      If I have to work late
• ·      If I have to work early
• ·      How much I think I deserve to finish
• ·      How great I think I could be
• ·      How great I think I should be
• ·      Who I am
• ·      What I do for a living
• ·      Where I live
• ·      Why I’ve decided I need to do this
• ·      How fast I think I can run
• ·      How long I think I can run
• ·      What anyone else thinks
• ·      If it’s too hot
• ·      If it’s too cold
• ·      If it’s raining
• ·      If it’s snowing
• ·      Whether I’m sick
• ·      That I’ve been a runner for over 30 years
• ·      How much sleep I didn’t get
• ·      What is on TV
• ·      That I really want to see that latest movie
• ·      That sugar-filled foods taste good and make me happy
• ·      That Perpetuem tastes like warm spit during a long run
• ·      That Hammer Gels often have the consistency of warm mucus, or cold mucus depending on       the ambient temperature of the run
• ·      That it’s “too late to run”
• ·      That it’s “too early to run”
  

While Leadville may be a harsh and unforgiving mistress, she is one to whom I have given part of my heart and soul.  As I write this, it is snowing outside, there is a fire raging in the fireplace, there’s a pizza in the oven, and my kids are sitting on the floor in the family room watching a movie.  While Leadville may have a part of me, the rest belongs to these moments.  I will do what it takes to finish this year, but I must also do what it takes to be with my family and make them happy.  So, after we eat that delicious pizza, I will sneak upstairs for a quick 6 miles on the treadmill and be done in time to read a story to the kids and tuck them in bed.  Tomorrow I will take turns doing long runs with my wife while we juggle time with the kids. 

Although I realize that Leadville doesn’t care, there are some things that must come first.  While I work hard to get in my miles, I work even harder to make sure I spend quality time with my family.  After all, if it weren’t for them, none of this would mean a thing.  

Frosty Fifty Race Report- The Perils of Gravity

I have to be honest, I have a real love hate relationship with this race.  It was my first ultra back in 2010 and was a catalyst for my growing passion of ultra running.  That year I was happy to finish at all and thrilled with my finish time of 5:25.  I missed the race in 2011 but went back again in 2012 and ran a 5:04.  Here is a race report from that experience.  I was a lot faster but had nutrition problems and ended up puking and bonking.  Never one to be deterred by a bad experience with a race I went back again this year with my trusty running buddy, Tim.

I had no real plan or expectation for how I would do.  My training plan called for a five hour run on race day, so I took that as a sign and decided to shoot for a five hour finish.  This would also be my first experiment with my coach's prescribed nutrition program.  As the race approached I definitely had mixed feelings.  It is a great race and a very forgiving course, but it would be cold, and Tim and I would have to leave bright and early to get there, which would require a 4am wake up call.  It was also hard to get fired up about a race that I've finished twice.  Putting all negativity aside and focusing on the positive, Tim and I ventured to Winston Salem early Saturday morning.  Besides, I had to run for 5 hours anyway.  Might as well be at a pretty cool race, right?

The race has grown exponentially since we first ran it in 2010.  There are now 25K and relay options which brought out a lot of runners.  While this completely changed the feel of the race, it was great to see lots of people who had never thought of running an ultra be exposed to one.  As I have come to expect with ultra runners and trail races, the runners were friendly and supportive and the volunteers were amazing.

The race started at 8am with a temperature somewhere in the low 30s.  Tim and I sat in his car until about 10 minutes before the start and debated what to wear.  I opted for long running pants, a compression shirt, a thin fleece pull over, fleece gloves and a skull cap.  It was a good choice for the first hour of the run.  By the second hour I was intermittently too hot and too cold.  I ended up dropping the gloves half way through.

We started out conservatively, with a 9:15-9:30 pace and felt comfortable and relaxed.  We cruised along, chatting about everything and enjoying the scenery.  Then somewhere between miles 6 and 7, while running in the middle of a fair number of other runners, a tiny rock jumped up and grabbed my right foot, sending me hurtling toward the ground at what I'm convinced was at least three times the speed of sound.  My left knee hit first, taking the brunt of the impact, slamming into the asphalt greenway and bouncing me forward toward my face.  I had just enough time to tuck my head and roll.  This resulted in a brief, absurd, and somewhat impressive display of acrobatics.  I caught a flash of one of my legs flying through the air with the sky bright blue behind it.  Surreal.  When I came to a stop I jumped up and kept running as quickly as I could.  I chose not to look around but heard several gasps as I went down and a few people asking if I was ok. My knee hurt like hell, and I was embarrassed and pissed off.  Once the adrenaline wore off I realized that I had hurt myself.  I walked for a minute or two to assess the damage.  Only a couple of small scrapes but there was some swelling and discoloration around the knee cap.  I decided it would loosen up with time and kept on keeping on.

By the time I got back to the start finish at the end of the first lap, I wasn't sure I was going to head out for a second lap.  I felt fine from an energy point of view, but I was in a lot of pain and started to worry about doing damage.  I voiced this concern to Tim who was appropriately supportive and encouraging.  I had just about convinced myself to quit when the trail leveled out, allowing me to run more comfortably.  Then the turn around appeared too soon.  I wasn't ready to stop running yet.  I knew I had more in me and decided I would turn around and head back out and just quit and head back if it got too bad.  Rationalization firmly in place, I turned around and headed out for the second lap.

Tim and I continued to run together, but I could tell he felt better than I did, as I had to push to keep the pace we had been running and that he was comfortable with. Around mile 21 Tim started to pull away from me.  He wasn't speeding up, but I was slowing down.  I didn't push it and let him go.  By this time I had figured out that I could run on the flats and small hills without too much discomfort in my knee but had to walk up and down any significant hills.  On the way back after the final turn around I caught up with Ryan, whom I had met at this race last year.  Since that time I've seen him at a few races and had the opportunity to run with him during a long training run at Umstead.  He is training for his second attempt at the Umstead 100 this year.  We began to run together and pushed each other to run more often and faster than either of us would have on our own.  We ended up crossing the line in 5 hours and 22 seconds (at least according to my watch.)  I am very grateful to Ryan for the company and motivation for those last, difficult miles.

Aftermath:  Tim had a great race, finishing in 4:48, almost 10 minutes faster than his previous finish. I wouldn't have been able to keep up with him, even without the fall.  The nutrition plan worked well.  I was able to take in two gels and 20 oz of Perpetuem (totaling 300 calories), and two salt tabs every hour.  This was quite a change from my traditional approach, which usually involves having no plan at all and running until I'm hungry and then eating a bunch of crap until I bonk.  My coach's plan required a lot more effort but worked well.

My knee is swollen and has a lovely purple shade covering the entire knee cap.  Nothing seems to be broken, but it hurts like the dickens when I go up or down stairs.  I was scheduled to run for two hours the day after Frosty Fifty but had to forgo it to let the swelling go down. I should be back in the swing of things in a couple of days.  The good news is that I set a PR for the race and am not sore at all, except for the knee.

Next race will be the Myrtle Beach Marathon in February.  I'll be doing my best to keep up with Wendy as she blisters the course.

Embracing the cliche

This time of year the internet is overflowing with year in reviews, looks back and other self indulgent retrospectives.  Not being one to buck the trend, here is my look back at 2012 and a few things on the horizon for 2013.

January -   Ran Frosty Fifty in Winston Salem with Tim and Rob.  Started too fast. Tried new nutrition. Got sick. Got slow.  Puked.  Bonked.  Lesson learned.

February - Couldn't get into the Mount Mitchell Challenge so I ran the marathon.  It was cold, I had fun and ran slow.  No puking so we'll call that an improvement.

March - Ran the Umstead Trail Marathon with Tim and Wendy.  I had an amazing time running with Wendy and pushing myself to keep up with her 10th place overall female finish and setting a course PR for myself in the process.  One of my all time favorite races.

March - "Ran" the Bel Monte 50 Mile Endurance Run.  Rained the entire time.  Wanted to quit a lot.  Kept going.  Learned a lot about myself.  Finished by myself in the dark, cold and rain.  Hated it.  Loved it.  Will do it again.  (I'm a moron.)

April - Volunteered at the Umstead 100 Mile Endurance Run.  The kids and I worked an aid station for several hours.  They loved the atmosphere and worked hard the entire time.  I was thrilled that they didn't want to leave.  Paced a lap for Jen and then a lap for Amy.  Stayed up all night.  Had a ball.

June - Started sleeping in a tent inside the house.  Yes, I'm sure that's normal behavior.  Shut up.

July - Ran the Grandfather Mountain Marathon.  One word, humid.  Drove the course the day before and freaked myself out.  Ran conservatively and surprised myself with an amazing day.  Finished in 4:03 and felt amazing.  Convinced myself I was ready for Leadville.  (I wasn't.)

August - Piled the family into the Family Truckster and drove to Leadville, Colorado.  Wife and kids crewed.  I ran.  I walked.  I gasped.  I puked.  I walked some more.  I ran a little.  I missed the cut off at Winfield.  I cried.  I cussed.  I reflected.  I focused on the positive and decided to go back.  Hired a coach and started getting serious for Leadville 2013.

September - Ran a lot.  Searched for my motivation.

October- Ran the Medoc Trail Marathon with Tim.  Had a great race and began to get my mojo back after Leadville.

November - Went to Panama City Beach, FL. to support Wendy while she kicked ass at Ironman Florida.

November - Ran the Richmond Marathon with Tim.  Low expectations.  Negative split.  New PR.  Color me surprised.

November - Paced my neighbor Rob for several hours at the Crooked Road 24 Hour Run in VA.

November - Ran a local 5K with my wife, 6 year old daughter and 8 year old son.  They loved it.  Very proud.

December- Ran a lot.  Finished up the year by running 830 miles between September 1 - Dec. 31.  Became addicted to http://ultrarunnerpodcast.com.  You should check it out.

January 1, 2013- Registered for the 2013 Leadville Trail 100 Run.

Lots more running planned for 2013.  Thanks to everyone who checked out this blog during the last year.  Please keep checking back and let me know your thoughts and comments.

Back in the Saddle

I'll be honest.  My DNF (did not finish) at Leadville still haunts me.  I have dreams about standing at the top of Hope Pass, exhausted, spent and knowing deep down that it wasn't going to happen for me this year.  Standing there, at 12,600 with the wind whipping around me, I felt exposed, raw and vulnerable.  I can't shake that feeling.  It comes to me in the middle of my runs.  It comes to me late at night as I drift off to sleep in the comfort of my own bed.  It is always there, serving both as a bitter reminder as well as a powerful motivating force.

I didn't run for a week after the race and then only short runs of an hour or so.  During those runs I was tired and felt drained.  I spent a lot of time on line and talking with friends looking for coach.  I finally settled on Scott Weber, who only works with ultra runners and has spent many, many years helping runners get to the finish line at Leadville.  I have been working with him since late August.  I find it very helpful to be held accountable to a coach.  It is far more difficult to rationalize skipping a workout if I know I'm going to have to tell someone about it.  Especially someone I am paying to help me run.

He suggested a GPS, so I went out and purchased a Garmin 610 with a heart rate monitor.  I have run with it since August and have discovered several things.  The most glaring of which is that wearing a GPS is a lot like being married.  The watch, much like a good life partner, tells you when you are doing a good job, but doesn't lie to you when you are not doing what you set out to do.  It's unrelenting honesty helps to make me a better runner.  I can't fudge the numbers when they are staring right at me.  They speak for themselves.  At first this was very unsettling and depressing.  I was running so slowly and my heart rate was through the roof.  However,  over time, and with consistency, I have seen my pace increase and my heart rate decrease.

Several weeks ago I had some strange sort of breakthrough.  Coach Weber has been having me run slow and easy at a comfortable pace to build a good base.  That pace hovered around 10+ minutes per mile on the average until the Medoc Trail Marathon at Medoc Mountain State Park last month.

This is a fantastic race.  The entire course is very runnable and most of it is a non-technical single track. It consists of three loops through the park which allows a good amount of crowd support for a trial race.  I focused on running conservatively from the beginning, planning on about a 4:30 or maybe a 4:20 day.  Early on I felt strong and relaxed and managed to take in lots of nutrition on a regular basis.  At the halfway mark, I still felt great and was actually beginning to move a little faster.  I was beginning to move up through the field and pass people regularly.  I crossed the line in 4:10 and felt great.  I wasn't spent and spent about 45 minutes hanging out and watching other finishers before I had to head back for a family engagement.  Most surprisingly, I was not sore at all the next day.

I went out for my Tuesday run and was surprised to see that instead of plodding along at 10 minutes per mile I was running between 8:30 and 9:00 per mile and feeling great.  This continued both Wednesday and Thursday.   It was as if my body found another gear. The following Saturday I went to Umstead and ran 12 at just over a 9 minute pace and went back to the park again Sunday and ran just under 10 at about the same pace.  Both days felt relaxed and fun and easy.

Last week my training was a little off as I went with my wife to support her as she completed the Florida Ironman.  She has been working very hard for the last several months and it showed.  She finished in 13:15 and change and felt great.  She ran the marathon in 4:11, which was only two minutes slower than her PR for a stand alone marathon.  Talk about throwing down the gauntlet.

The week after my wife rocked Ironman Florida my long time training partner and fellow lunatic Tim and I traveled to Richmond, VA for the Anthem Richmond Marathon.  When we signed up for it several months ago we both had visions of setting PRs there as it is a fast course.  As we got closer to race date we began to reevaluate our potential for a strong finish.  Tim has been sick and busy with work/family and had not gotten in the miles he had planned.  I, on the other hand, had gotten in plenty of miles, but they weren't fast ones.  In fact, race week was a peak training cycle for me with 10 hours of scheduled running.  My coach and I decided that I would train through the race and not try to taper or peak for it and just run strong and see how it went.

The weather was PERFECT for a race.  It was in the upper 40's at start and quickly warmed up into the 50's and was in the low 60's by noon.  My previous PR for a marathon was 3:51 in Charlotte a couple of years ago.  When I signed up I told the race organizers I was going to run a 3:45 so I ended up in that starting corral and decided to hell with it.  I would try to keep up with the 3:45 pace group as long as I could and them limp to the finish.  They said go and we were off.  I had decided to travel light and carry just my Hammer Gels and no water.  I ate a gel about every 4 to 5 miles and used the water from the aid stations to wash them down.  This strategy seemed to be working as I was still running comfortably with the pace group as we passed the halfway mark at around 1:51.  I kept waiting to blow up but still felt good.  Our pacer did a fantastic job of running at a fairly consistent 8:30 pace.  He has run several ultras so we spent some time talking about various races and what it was like to run 100 miles.  Around mile 17 a guy on a bike rode past the group and shouted encouragement.  I immediately recognized his as legendary ultrarunner David Horton.  Our pacer pointed him out to me and we spent the next few minutes talking about his exploits and the races he organizes in Virginia.

Strangely, I was still feeling great.  I had been running and chatting with Scott for the past several miles. He is from Raleigh and was running his first marathon.  He hoped to finish in 4 hours.  Shortly after mile 17 we began to pull away from the 3:45 pace group and started running mile splits closer to 8:10 and 8:15.  We kept this up for a while and when we got to the 22 mile mark we began to pick it up and push one another.  I figured that I could suffer just fine for 3 miles and even if I blew up and walked I still stood a good shot of setting a new PR.  By the time we passed mile 23 we were running sub 8 minute miles.  Mile 25 to 26 was at a 7:30 pace.  We were passing runners left and right, getting faster and faster as they slowed down.  Slowly I began to realize that I wasn't going to blow up.  That I was having the race of a lifetime.  I knew I was going to set a PR.  I knew I was going to run under 3:45 and there was a very good chance I could run under 3:40.

I knew that it would be close and I would have to really work to have a finish time that in the 3:30s.  I remembered the Grandfather Mountain Marathon that I ran in June and how much I wanted to run a sub 4 and how I was on the bubble for a couple of miles.  I vividly remember exactly where I was on the course when I gave up and quit the idea of a sub 4.  I still finished in 4:03, but part of me knew I could have done more.  I didn't want to feel that way again.  I wanted to go sub 3:40.  Scott and I stayed together until the last three tenths of a mile when he got a side stitch.  I opened it wide on the file stretch and crossed the line with a chip time of 3:39:09.  Scott finished moments behind me but actually ahead of me as he had a chip time of 3:38 and change.

It was an absolutely amazing day.  Everything fell into place.  I couldn't have run as fast without Scott to push me.  I finished and felt great.  No cramping, no nausea.  Nothing.  Just a little hungry.  I couldn't believe it.  Tim finished well under 4 hours and only a couple of minutes away from setting a PR.  It was an incredible day.

The next day I got up early to finish my training schedule for the week and knocked out an easy 8 miles.  My legs felt a little heavy, but not too bad.  When everything was said and done I ran 68 miles last week, including the marathon.  No injuries and no soreness.  

While I harbor no delusions that I will always feel this good I have decided to live in the moment and enjoy it for what it is.

I will now focus my efforts on getting ready for the Umstead 100 Mile Endurance Run in April, which I will use as a tune up race for Leadville in August.

I already have my room booked for race weekend in Leadville again.  Some people never learn.

Leadville Trail 100 Run- Postmortem

Where to start?  I guess, with the obvious.  I didn't finish.  This was my first DNF, and it still stings. I made it over Hope Pass (12,600 feet) and down into Winfield at the 50 mile mark but was outside the cut off time and was pulled from the race.  After slightly more that 14 1/2 hours, my race was over. More on that later.

RACE PREP:

As anyone who has been reading this blog knows, I spent a lot of effort preparing for the 2012 Race Across the Sky.  I ran over 1,200 training miles and spent six weeks sleeping in an altitude chamber from Hypoxico.  I felt stronger and healthier than I ever have going into a race.  I had remained injury free since February and was consistently running 60 to 80 miles every week, which was a record for me.  I felt that I had done enough.  I thought I was as ready as I could be, both physically and mentally.

ARRIVING IN LEADVILLE:

We decided to turn the race into a two week family road trip. We left Raleigh bright and early on Monday before the race and drove to Leadville, arriving on Wednesday afternoon.  I managed to pick up a cold on the first day of our trip and was full on sick by the time we got there.  Sore throat, sinus pressure, cough, runny nose, elevated heart rate.  It wasn’t at all what I was hoping for.  I had reached a point in my training that my resting heart rate hovered around 46 or 47 beats per minute.  By the time we got to Leadville, between my cold and the altitude I was lucky to keep it down in the 70s, and if I walked across the room, it spiked into the low 100s.  Ever the optimist, I chose to ignore this and the cold in its entirety and rely on my training.

We rented a house from Alpine Realty which was clean and had more than enough room for the four of us.  We quickly settled in and then set out to explore the town.  Our house was only 3 blocks from the start finish and 2 blocks from the 6^th Street Gym, where the race briefing would be held on Friday. 

Our first night there we had a nice dinner at Zichitella's.  Although they aren’t in any way healthy, I highly recommend their homemade potato chips. 

We spent the next couple of days relaxing and shopping for supplies.

PACKET PICK UP:

Getting weighed in during the medical check at packet pick up.

I was anxious to get started with the process so I went to early packet pick up and medical check on Thursday morning.  It went smoothly and was very exciting  and somewhat surreal to finally be in Leadville with a bib number and timing chip.


DRIVING THE COURSE:

After picking up my packet, we decided that we would drive around and find as many of the crew access points as we could.  If you are planning on running Leadville, I cannot stress enough how important this is.  The roads in Lake County wind around and fold in on themselves and can get very confusing if you aren’t familiar with them.  We spent a fair amount of time somewhat misdirected and turned around.  The directions to the crew points in the race book were not as detailed as I would have liked, and our GPS was a little out of date and kept giving us wrong information.  Finally I broke out the iPad and was able to pull up a detailed map of the area and plot our course.  We found Tabor Boat Ramp, May Queen, Fish Hatchery, and Twin Lakes.  We weren’t able to find Tree Line with the directions they gave us and ran out of time before we could get to Winfield on Thursday.  Fish Hatchery and Twin Lakes are very easy to find, but you need to be sure to coordinate with your crew where to meet so you don’t run into the same problem I did on race day.  

The kids playing on the shore of Turquoise Lake.

The trail from Twin Lakes toward Hope Pass.

The view from the road between Fish Hatchery and Half Pipe.

MANDATORY RACE BRIEF:

Friday morning at 11:00 I headed into the 6^th Street Gym, along with 800 other racers and their crews and pacers.  The energy in the air was palpable.  I don’t believe I have ever been in the presence of so many fit people, not even at my two previous Ironman races.  We got an introduction and some general information and then a really excellent talk by the race’s medical director.  The last thing on the agenda was the traditional speech by Ken Chlouber, who founded the race 30 years ago.  Sadly, Ken’s brother died the Wednesday before the race, and he wasn’t able to make it.  Instead he sent his son, Cole, to speak to the runners. Cole had grown up with the Leadville Trail 100 run since he was 8 years old.  He has 5 bike finishes as well as one attempt and one finish of the run.  I was disappointed that I wouldn’t get to hear Ken speak, as he is an iconic part of the race.  I shouldn’t have worried.  Cole did an outstanding job.  By the time he was finished, I had tears in my eyes and was fired up enough to eat nails.  The entire gym was on their feet cheering.  It was an amazing experience.    Cole’s words echoed in my head throughout the next day. 

After the race I stepped outside where I met two time Leadville champion Anton Krupicka.  I wished him luck and asked for a quick picture.  He was very friendly and accommodating.   The briefing for the crews was set to start at 12:30, and I had a few minutes to spare, so I walked back to the house to get Wendy and the kids.  We got back to the gym around 12:20, and the crew briefing was almost over.  They had started it immediately after the runner’s briefing.  Wendy and I were both frustrated because we really felt we needed some of the information.  Wendy was worried about where to park and how I would find them.  The gym was hot, and the kids were getting restless, so Wendy took them back to the house while I stayed behind to ask questions.  The woman giving the presentation was also in charge of cut offs and was extremely nice and helpful.  I followed her out of the gym, peppering her with questions, which she seemed happy to answer. 

She told me that I should not have my crew meet me at Winfield because they have limited space and the traffic is terrible.  My pacer (Jenn) was planning on meeting me there, so Wendy and I decided she and the kids would just wait at Twin Lakes.  This decision also kept us from having to drive out to Winfield that afternoon to scout it, which was nice.  We spent the rest of the day going over our plan - writing down directions to various crew access points and going over lists of supplies and potential times of arrival. 

Quick photo op with two time Leadville champion Anton Krupicka.

RACE MORNING:

I got up at 2:45, ate a small breakfast, and got dressed.  Wendy got up while I was eating and got ready.  Then we got the kids up a little after 3.  They had slept in their crew shirts and bounced right out of bed, excited for the adventure.  I had promised them they could stay up all night and sleep in the back of the van if they got tired.  We walked down to 6^th Street and Harrison with all the other lunatics where I got hugs and kisses from Wendy and the kids and headed off to find my spot in the starting corral for the 4am start.  The weather was supposed to be perfect.  It was right around 40 degrees at race start with a high of 68 and a low Saturday night of 38.  No real chance of rain.  It doesn’t get much better than that. 

As I was standing on 6^th Street, I looked up and saw Jen Cosco.  I had met Jen at the Bel Monte 50 Mile Endurance Run earlier in the hear.  She had attempted Leadville last year and was back for a second attempt.  I have kept up with her blog, and it was nice to see a familiar face.  We talked about nerves and training and whether either one of us was really ready for this. 

A short speech, the National Anthem, a shotgun blast, and we were off and running. 

Posing with 2/3rds of my Race Crew just before start.

Ready for the start.  They say ignorance is bliss, and I do look happy.

START TO TABOR BOAT RAMP (Mile 0 to Mile 7)

Before I get into the nitty gritty of what happened, let me say this:  In my preparation for this race, I read every race report, article, and blog entry and watched every video I could find about it.  They were all full of lots of good and hard-earned advice.  I read and processed all of it and apparently disregarded most of it.  Every article talked about how crowded it can get on the single track around Turquoise Lake.  I should have listened.  I didn’t.  I was so concerned about going out too fast too soon that I ran very conservatively for the first couple of miles.  I was scared that I was going to go out too fast and blow up. 

As always, I was wearing a Raleigh Running Outfitters shirt and hat.  About a mile in a man commented on the shirt and said he was from Durham.  It turned out to be Guido Ferarri.  He is a regular presence on the running scene in and around the triangle.  I had heard of him and we have a few mutual acquaintances, but we had never met.  Funny that we had to be 1800 miles from home, running a 100 mile race in the dark in the Rockies to make a connection.  He told me that he had one finish and one DNF at Leadville.  We ran together for a few minutes before he pulled off for a quick pit stop. 

After a couple of miles the route took a 90 degree right hand turn off the road and onto single track for a ways, then back out onto the road, and then back to single track around Turquoise Lake.  This part of the trail was very frustrating to me.  I was stuck behind a long line of people that were going much slower than the pace I wanted to run.  I scooted around when I could but spent long portions of the trail walking behind people in front of me.  I had no idea how far I had been, but I knew I wanted to be at Tabor Boat Ramp in a little more than an hour.  It was close to an hour and 20 minutes before the ramp appeared suddenly out of the darkness, followed immediately by my family.  I was surprised to see them and kept running after some quick high fives.  (My son told me I missed his high five and hit him in the face. I don’t know if that’s true or not, but he was none the worse for wear, and I see the humor in that story.)

TABOR BOAT RAMP TO MAY QUEEN (Mile 7 to Mile 13.5)

I was able to make up a little bit of time during this section and got into May Queen a little after 6:30.  I didn’t stop at the aid station; I just checked in and out and met my crew on the road.  I got some new Hammer Gels and headed off.  I should have dropped my light because it was daytime by now, but I wasn’t thinking clearly.  It was great to see Wendy.  She seemed very excited and happy for me, which helped motivate me.  My son and daughter were just starting to wake up.  My son had some stomach issues and threw up several times that morning on the sides of various roads, but he never complained to me once.  Now that’s a crew member!

My plan was to eat one Hammer Gel every 30 minutes.  I was already way behind.  I started rationalizing stretching that out after the first 30 minutes.  I was averaging about one an hour - not enough, as I would come to find out.  Still, I felt pretty good and had no aches or pains, and my legs felt strong.  It was hard to keep my heart rate down, I think because of a combination of my cold, the altitude, and the excitement of the race.  The high heart rate was slowly starting to make me tired and my walk breaks were becoming longer and longer. 

MAY QUEEN TO FISH HATCHERY (Mile 13.5 to Mile 23.5) 2hrs 21minutes

The 10 miles from May Queen to Fish Hatchery climbs over Sugar Loaf (11,000 ft) and down Power line Hill.  The run up is on Hagerman Road, which is an old dirt road with a long but gradual grade.  I was able to run portions of it without too much difficulty.  I alternated running and fast hiking it in an attempt to save some energy.  There were some truly amazing views as we climbed away from May Queen and Turquoise Lake.  At the top the route plunged down a rough, rutted power line right of way.  I was not able to bomb down it as I had hoped, but was able to run at a comfortable pace.  After several miles of descent, the course popped out onto a paved road and continued about a mile and a half into Fish Hatchery.  I checked into the aid station right around 9am.  I had hoped to be there by 8 but I was still a full hour ahead of the cut off time so I wasn’t too worried.  I grabbed some chips and a coke and headed out.  Just outside the Hatchery I saw 2/3rds of my crew running down the road toward me.  I followed them back to Wendy where I shed ear warmers, arm warmers, gloves, and the light I should have given them at May Queen.  I got some fresh Gatorade, some more Hammer Gels, and a Red Bull and headed out.  I was in a great mood and still moving well, if not fast.  In retrospect I knew in the back of my mind that I needed more calories and that I was heading for a meltdown.  However, much like a character from an Albert Camus novel, I seemed helpless to alter my actions and plodded contentedly on toward my inevitable implosion.

Coming out of Fish Hatchery Aid Station, with crew escort.

Greeting my race crew with a smile.

Heading out from Fish Hatchery toward Half Pipe.

FISH HATCHERY TO HALF PIPE (Mile 23.5 to Mile 29.1) 1hr 45minutes

Man, this was a long 5 ½ miles.  The course followed the road from the Fish Hatchery for what seemed like an eternity.  The scenery was gorgeous, and it was nice and flat, but I couldn’t make my legs go.  I would run for a few minutes and then walk a few minutes.  I resorted to using the countdown timer on my watch to make myself run for decent intervals.  Here I played leapfrog with lots of different people.  This is when I started to realize how far back in the pack I was.  I kept telling myself that if I kept going at 4-5mph I would be more than fine.  After spending what seemed like an eternity on the road, the course veered off and ran along a rolling trail with the mountains looming in the background.  There is a crew access point called Tree Line around mile 27.  We opted to skip that as it was only a few miles past where I had just seen my family.  Just a couple of miles past Tree Line is the Half Pipe aid station. 

HALF PIPE TO TWIN LAKES (Mile 29.1 to Mile 39.5) 2hrs 21minutes

I made it to Half Pipe at 10:35.  The sign at the aid station said that Twin Lakes was the next fully stocked aid station at mile 39.5 with a cut off time of 2:00pm.  I already knew that.  It also said there was a water station between Half Pipe and Twin Lakes.  The problem was that I read the sign wrong.  It actually said that the water was at mile 36.  I thought it said the water was in 3 miles.  I drank some coke and ate some potato chips and orange slices here before heading out.  It was getting warm but nothing compared to the heat and humidity we have in North Carolina, so I wasn’t too phased by the afternoon sun.  I took some chips in a bag with me for the trail.  I hiked and ate and talked with another runner and shared my chips.  I kept doing mental math - calculating and re-calculating my pace and how far I thought I had gone.  The water station would not show up.  I began to get really discouraged.  I had been going for over an hour and still no water station. Surely I was moving faster than that.  I was still able to run/shuffle along without too much trouble.  I began to panic as I saw my watch get closer and closer to one o’clock.  Finally, around a bend was the water station, along with volunteers who said that Twin Lakes was a little over 3 miles downhill.  I was so relieved to know I was still moving as well as I thought.  I came down off the hill and into the Twin Lakes aid station at 1:05.  55 minutes ahead of the cut off.  Still nowhere near as fast as I had wanted to be, but I thought I was going to be fine.  I had until 4:30 to make it 5 miles to the aid station on Hope Pass.  Surely I could go 5 miles in 3 ½ hours.  Right? 

I checked into the aid station and sat down for two minutes to eat some orange slices, chips, and pretzels and drink a coke.  I headed out looking for my crew, still very much enjoying the day and the crowds.  I walked past the aid station, down the street, turned right, headed down to the parking lot by the trail head.  No crew.  Shit.  Where were they?  I really needed them.  My plan was to switch shoes and socks, trade my two bottle belt for a hydration vest, and get my trekking poles.  Most importantly, they had my headlamp and rain gear.  I turned around and walked all the way back to the aid station.  Still, no crew.  I decided to hell with it, I would just go ahead and go.  I walked back to the lot and there, about 15 yards past the end of the lot where I had turned around the first time through, sat my crew, anxiously awaiting me.  By this time it was 1:20, and I had spent almost 15 minutes wandering around looking for them.  I plopped down in a chair and changed my shoes and sock.  I had a small hot spot on the outside of my big toe on my right foot so I cleaned it and put on a Band-Aid.  I drank a Red Bull, grabbed my pack and poles, kissed my crew, and headed off to conquer Hope Pass.  (12,600 feet) 

Being tended to by my crew at Twin Lakes.

Smiling and ready to conquer Hope Pass, which you can see looming in the background.

TWIN LAKES TO HOPELESS AID STATION (Mile 39.5 to Mile 44) 3hours

I wasn’t too worried about losing 15 minutes.  I was still moving well and was able to hike/walk about 3.5 to 4 miles per hours comfortably.  I crossed the river and enjoyed the cold refreshing water on my feet and legs.  I got to see the leaders coming back into Twin lakes during this section.  The trail winds through the marsh to the base of Hope Pass and then turns up with a vengeance.  Any ability I had to move quickly and comfortably quickly evaporated as I climbed up Hope Pass.  The majority of the climb is in the woods and sheltered from the sun, which was nice.  I forced myself to keep moving forward, no matter how slow or how tired I was.  I expected it to take about an hour and forty-five minutes to two hours to get to the top.  I wasn’t too far off.  I finally made it to the Hopeless Aid station a few minutes before 4pm. 

For anyone who is not familiar with the history of the race, Hopeless Aid Station is about half a mile down from the summit of Hope Pass and is staffed by incredible volunteers and has limited supplies because of its remote location.  These supplies are packed in by Llamas.  That’s right, I said llamas.  As I broke free from the trees I was greeted by a volunteer who said, “Welcome to Hopeless Aid Station.”  Behind her, scattered across the mountainside were at least a dozen llamas, hanging out grazing.  To call the scene surreal is an understatement.  Dozens of volunteers are running around fixing food and water and soup and checking on runners who are laid out all over the grass in various states of disrepair.  It looks more like a MASH unit than an aid station.  I spent a few minutes at Hopeless before pushing on to the summit.  My head felt fuzzy, and it was hard to catch my breath.  I knew it wouldn’t get any better until I got down the other side. 

HOPELESS AID STATION TO SUMMIT OF HOPE PASS (Mile 44 to Mile 44.5) 30minutes

I departed the aid station right around 4 and began my trek up to the summit.  It was very deceptive how far and how steep that last push was.  The trail is narrow and rocky.  I was really bonking -no food, no appetite, no oxygen.  I was moving about as fast as an anemic slug.  To complicate things further, there was an ever increasing number of runners returning from Winfield.  The trail was narrow, so I had to stop and move carefully off the trail to let them pass.  This added several minutes to my ascent.  It took me almost a full 30 minutes to make it the ½ mile to the summit.  It felt really good to get there.  I crossed the timing mat and didn’t look back.  I bent down to pick up two small rocks to give to my kids from the summit and realized I hadn’t even looked back to enjoy the view.  By this time I was 15 yards past the summit and didn’t have the energy to back track for the view.  I had from 4:30 until 6:15 to go downhill 5 miles.  I was confident I would hit Winfield and be back.  It might not be pretty, but I was sure I’d be back. I told myself if I could get there with just a few minutes to spare I could eat something and get some energy back before my return trip.  I would have the advantage of having a pacer with me for motivation on the trip back up.  I was still optimistic. 

SUMMIT TO WINFIELD (Mile 44.5 to Mile 50+ish)2hrs 5minutes

This was one of those sections of trail that never ends.  No matter how fast I tried to go or how far I thought I’d been the next aid station seemed to keep getting farther away.  I figured I was moving downhill between 3 and 4 miles per hour.  After about an hour I encountered a runner and his pacer coming back up.  I asked them how far it was to Winfield, figuring about two miles.  I was shocked when they told me it was 5 or more miles.  They couldn’t be right.  I waited until I passed another pacer, this time with a GPS and asked again.  The first group had been right.  Two things were happening.  One, I was out of gas and moving much slower than I should have been.  Two, the backside of Hope Pass is longer than advertised.   The race director announced on Wednesday before the race that they had received permission to use a new section of trail into Winfield.  The message boards were all a flutter with activity.  The general consensus was that this new section added a total of 2.5 to 3 miles to the course and another 600 feet of elevation gain. 

I kept moving forward, hoping the runners were wrong and that I would somehow make it to Winfield before the cutoff at 6:15.  I tried to move as fast as I could, but wasn’t able to run more than a few steps at a time.  When I did push harder and force myself to run, I was reduced to a crumpled, vomiting pile on the trail.  I recovered as quickly as I could and got back on my feet to keep moving.  20 yards down the trail, I started vomiting again.  I was not surprised or discouraged by this.  In fact, they said it would happen during the medical briefing.  I just kept on pushing as hard as I could and looking at my watch.  6:00 passed, still no sign of Winfield.  6:10, 6:11, 6:12, 6:13 - still pushing as hard as I could.  Finally, I looked down and saw it was 6:16.  It was over.  I was done.  Leadville had beaten me.  I was still able to walk at a decent pace without any discomfort and headed into the aid station.  As I passed runners and their pacers heading back up the climb after the cut off they were all kind and said supportive things, but they all looked at me like my puppy had just died.  There was a lot of sympathy in their eyes and voices. 

In the final quarter mile I passed Jen, who I had seen at the start.  She had a bad day and missed a cut off earlier and was waiting on some friends.  We shared a few words and I kept moving.  I was disappointed, but it wasn’t real yet. 

Then I saw my pacer.  Jenn and I ran together at the Umstead Trail 100 last year.  I was able to finish that one but Jen had to drop due to an injury late in the race.  She came back this year and finished, and I paced for her.  After the race she moved to Colorado and agreed to meet me at Winfield and pace me as long as I needed her.  As soon as I saw her, it all became real.  As she walked up to me, I got choked up, and tears filled my eyes.  She gave me a big hug and told me I had done a great job on a tough course.  We walked into the aid station, which was being dismantled, and I was approached by a race official with a pair of scissors in her hand.  She seemed more upset than I was to have to cut off my timing chip.  She gave me a big hug and told me what a great job I had done.  Nice words, but they didn’t have much meaning to me at the time. 

Jenn’s significant other, Nick, was there with his car, so we piled in and headed to Twin Lakes to meet Wendy and the kids.  They were afraid I hadn’t made the cut off but weren’t sure.  When we finally got out of the dead zone that is Winfield, Jenn had several texts from Wendy trying to find out what was going on.  I called her and told her I was done - that she could pack up and meet us at the car. 

I was a statistic.  1,000 people had signed up for the rae.  802 had started and 360 had finished.  True to history, less than 50% of the field finished the race.  At least I had lots of company. 

AFTER THE RACE

I did my best not to be too upset because I didn’t want to be a bad sport in front of my son and daughter.  After all, they are a main source of motivation for me.  I was upset.  This was my first DNF.  I had sacrificed a lot to be here. So had my family, and I didn’t finish.  That was hard to swallow. 

We headed back to the house and hatched a plan for the rest of the week.  We had initially planned on staying in Leadville until Monday and then driving home across the south west.  Since we weren’t up all night Saturday, we decided to head out early Sunday morning and spend the next week driving down to Four Corners, the Grand Canyon, and any place we wanted to stop along the way back home.  We ended up having a truly amazing family vacation.  It was just what I needed to decompress and put the race into perspective.  We arrived back in Raleigh the Saturday after the race, having driven over 4,600 miles through 16 states in 13 days. 

PRACTICAL LESSONS LEARNED

It’s hard to even express how much I learned during this race.  I think the most important thing is that I know the course now.  I got to see the entire thing, even if was only in one direction.  That helps tremendously in knowing what to expect. 

• I learned that I have to put way more emphasis on nutrition.  I have always half-assed my way through races, relying on a base level of fitness and determination.  Next time around I will spend as much time training to eat as I spend training to run.  (My legs weren't even sore the day after the race becaue I didn't have enought fuel to push them hard during the race.)
• As much as I love my kids and as much as they had an amazing experience, I would not come back with them as crew.  It was too much for Wendy to try to crew for me and to babysit an 8-year-old and a 6-year-old.  Simplify, simplify. 
• I will plan nutrition bags that I can pick up at access points and carry with me that have more than just gels in them. 
• I didn’t need a two bottle belt, and it weighed me down.  Next time I will run with either a single bottle belt or a handheld.  The hydration vest worked well, so I’ll keep that for my trip over Hope Pass. 
• I’m torn on the trekking poles.  On the upside, I used them a lot on the way up, and I’m sure they helped.  The downside is that they are a pain in the ass to run with.  I’m sure that I would have done a little more running without them.  That will be a decision that comes later. 
• Next time I will go out much faster for the first couple of miles to try to avoid getting caught in the never ending conga line around Turquoise Lake. 

BIG PICTURE

As I have said, I was and am disappointed that I didn’t finish.  However, after a week’s worth of reflection, I have to say that I really enjoyed the experience.  Leadville is a special race.  This race experience taught me a lot about living in the moment and enjoying life for what it is, not what you wish it to be.  There is an old Tibetan Buddhist expression that seems appropriate for my Leadville Experience.  “If there is a problem for which there is a solution, there is no need to worry.  If there is a problem for which there is no solution, there is no need to worry.”  I might not worry about not finishing, but I’ll damn sure use it as motivation to make sure it doesn’t happen again next year. 

THE PLAN

Before we went to bed on Saturday after the race, Wendy and I talked about coming back.  I told her I have to come back and finish, that I can’t leave it undone.  She thought about it for a while without saying much.  A short time later she said we should come back next year without the kids - that I should get the tent from Hypoxico again and that I should look into hiring a coach to help me.  So that, ladies and gentlemen is the plan.  I trained more for this race than I ever have for anything else, and I came up short.  While that realization is daunting, I also see it as an amazing challenge.  I will simply redouble my efforts and try again.  Some people might refer to this as a flat learning curve.  I prefer to think of it as dedication and determination.   

THANK YOU

I owe an incredible debt of thanks to Wendy.  Without her support and encouragement, I never would have made it to the start line.  She was behind me 100 percent.  I look forward to returning the favor when she kicks ass at Ironman Florida this November. 

Thanks to my kids, Sutherland (8) and Kettler (6), who think it’s normal to have a dad who gets up at 4am to run for six to ten hours on weekends and that all families drive across the country to run 100 mile races in the mountains.  They were amazing sports throughout the whole ordeal and shed tears of outrage when "they wouldn't let me" finish the race. 

Thanks to Jenn Coker for being the best almost pacer a guy could ever ask for. I’ll see you back in Leadville next year!

Thanks to Raleigh Running Outfitters, who has helped and supported me for the last several years.  I truly believe they are one of the best running stores in the country.  Thanks for everything guys.

Thanks to Matt Eckert at Hypoxico for all his help with dialing in my altitude training.  While I didn’t have the race I wanted in Leadville, I wouldn’t have gotten as far as I did without you.